My Bible study started Ruth tonight, and man am I excited. We all know the story, but how much more there is in there to learn. My two favorites from tonight: 1. How plain it is to see the way God orchestrated everything in Ruth’s story and redeemed, redeemed, redeemed. I LOVE seeing this in the Bible (and it’s all over). It comforts me so much to know that He is involved in all the details of my life, directing…purposefully. 2. Because of Naomi’s depressed state in the beginning, she was unable to see the hope and future she had. After losing her husband and two sons, she thought God had it out for her. I get that. If you’ve read any of my previous posts, you know that’s where my faith goes…which leads me to a tiny little victory I had today.
We are 1/12 finished with the Radical Experiment, and it’s been pretty smooth sailing. Of course, I knew there would be attack. On Thursday, I had my first-ever migraine. I definitely thought I was having a stroke and would die at any second. Then, the bad strep came on. Now, I have a cold. And, our dryer is dead. Today was sucky with several small things building to a meltdown. Usually, I will head straight for all the negative thoughts, like the Lord has no plan for my life, nor does He care what happens to me. BUT, I felt it coming on and by-passsed all that crap, by His grace. I just told Jesus I needed Him to SHOW UP. I will be waiting for His provision.
Also, a friend shared some information about an upcoming trip to Honduras. It sounds like exactly what I’m looking for in a mission trip. It’s “orphan-focused,” too! Who knows if it will happen, but I’m really excited about experiencing something like that. Here are a few reasons why it’s going to be very difficult: childcare for a week, being away from my girls, nursing/pumping/milk supply issue, taking off time from work, paying for the trip for both of us. Here’s what I keep telling myself: The Lord will work it out. The Lord will work it out. That has to be our response for everything, right? What I would just love would be to sit in an orphanage and nurse babies all day long.
Back to Ruth. I love to think about all the decisions, trials, and “surprises” that happen in my life and know it’s just one more thing that He’s put into motion. I rest in the truth that my life is one big redemption story, with a bunch of tiny redemption stories intertwined. I’m going to soak it in tonight.
Gratitude #7+: I’m thankful for my health. Never really appreciate it, until I’ve lost it. I’m thankful for Scripture that speaks to me like it was written yesterday.